After posting my second blog on what is success I believe that I should first of all revise my thoughts on my father. He was a kind and gentle man who was liked by everyone that met him. He was respected by my brothers and me, we were not afraid of him but loved him. He always had time for us all and for his grandchildren when they came along, both my daughters still have fond memories of him even though he died when they were still young. He was successful in his personal life. Where I believe he was nearly successful was in business. There is no doubt he died too early he would have had great fun seeing his grandchildren and now great grandchildren grow up.

Back to my life.

When do I believe that being nearly successful started. I think that it was with my 11+. I was a bright child and learnt quickly. I went to a private school which did more for my manners than my education but even so I expected to pass. I did not. I was told that I had nearly passed and that I was on the reserve list, ie if someone dropped out then I would get a place, no one did. So I nearly made it to grammer school. I believe that the real reason that I did not pass was due to a dramatic event that took place on the day of the exam.

There was a girl at my old school that was a terror, all the children were scared of her(strangely enough she became my sister in law but has not improved with age in fact she has got worse). She left my school due to an accident to her father much to ther releaf of everyone. After arriving at the school to take the exam I walked round a corner and literally bumped into her. It was traumatic and I am sure that it affected my results, or is this just an excuse? This sister in law is now the wicked witch in my granddaughters stories with a long pointed nose, green face and warts. Am I afraid of her now, certainly not, I only feel sorry for her.

So where does being nearly successful start? Was this it for me? One thing it did not do was affect my confidence, I was and still am a confident person so is it my inability to focus?

More later.